dAyDrEaMinG: Late Nitez

Monday, November 29, 2004

Late Nitez Exams are over. Holiday's here. No outburst of joy, not happy. For the first time in my life. I feel nothing. Not happy. Not sad. Not angry. Not nothing. Empty.

The wee hours of the night is so calm. Peaceful even. Standing on the stairs of the hostel and looking into the night. Everything's dark, quiet, serene. Nice.

I'm killing myself. It's 4.30 a.m. I cannot get to sleep. I'm tired, not physically but mentally. I've been having late nights for the past couple of weeks. I do not sleep but it isn't becos i have anything constructive to do. I jus stone around. Doing nothing in particular. Room's in a mess, irritates me, Desktop's in a mess, irritates me, life's in a mess, IRRITATES me. Not doing anything about it. Have taken a liking to beer; solves you emotional probs. Hate the taste, love the after effects. At least for awhile. ¶ 11/29/2004 04:30:00 AM

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