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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
This is super hilarious...
Try this site... Kenny Sia’s Benglish translator
You simply insert the address of the website you want translated and voila... you have an Ah Beng site...
A heartwarming story... but would we have done the same??
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended.
After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question. "When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. "I believe, that when a child like Shay comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes, in the way other people treat that child."
Then he told the following story: Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball.Shay asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?"
Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging. Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay could play.
The boy looked around for guidance and, getting none, he took matters into his own hands and said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning."
In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on the glove and played in the outfield.
Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands.
In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.
Should they, at this juncture, let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but
impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.
However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed.
The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay.As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown
the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher took the ball and turned and threw the ball on a high arc to right field, far beyond the reach of the first baseman.
Everyone started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!"
Never in his life had Shay ever made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!"
By the time Shay rounded first base, the right fielder had the ball.He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions and intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head.
Shay ran toward second base as the runners ahead of him deliriously circled the bases toward home.
Shay reached second base, the opposing shortstop ran to him, turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third!"
As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams were screaming, "Shay, run home!"
Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.
"That day," said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face,"the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world."
Monday, August 22, 2005
Weary....
I saw a man today.
What struck me hard was his exhaustion. Not from physical exertions but the trials and tribulations of life's journey. From the way his shoulders drooped and the way he dragged his feet, you could feel his sadness.
He was alone at McDonald's. I got into the queue in front of him thinking he was not ordering. He did not say anything, just walked to the side. He was very gentle and soft-spoken. He counted the coins he had and ordered two of the cheapest burgers there. He sat in corner of the restaurant. Alone. It was heartbreaking.
I have no idea why I am so affected by him. But maybe the fact that the whole scene took place at the airport made a difference.
I've always had very little liking for the airport. Someone once asked me whether I consider the airport a happy or a sad place. To me, it isn't a place where people welcome their loved ones but a place where sad goodbyes occur repeatedly.
It is a place where families are separated, friends are distanced and couples are torn apart. It is where people first lay their feet on a foreign ground. With no one to turn to they have to rely on their limited/no knowledge of the country they are in to get them by.
The old man has been at the airport for three days. He was wearing the same clothes I last saw him wearing, carrying the same tattered luggage bag.
He looked different today. He was limping. He looked weaker than he did three days ago. He was wandering around the airport. I am curious to find out who/what he is waiting for. I wouldn't want to be him.
I hate being alone. I detest feeling lonely. I wished I could have done something for him. But I didn't. I couldn't.
Monday, August 15, 2005
MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS
You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.
You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.
You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realize all your ambitions.
--------hmmm... do i think it's true? that's for me to know and for u to heck care... haha--------
MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS
You are feeling really miserable at this time and you'd like to form a relationship with someone with whom you could really communicate. At the same time, whoever it may be, that special 'someone' must not conflict with your own belief system or ideals. This makes for tough going - but it would seem that the situation is only transitory. It will soon pass.
You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.
It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.
Mood Test
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
The strangest things in life happens when you are not looking...
I'm up at this ungodly hour, yup, you'll seldom or prob almost never see me online at 7 plus in the morning when i slept at 4 plus just hours ago. Anyway, nonsense aside. Reason: thought i had missed tutorial balloting on CORS so decided to come online early and see which crap tutorial slot i can get. While waiting for CORS to open (when i eventually found out that there seems to be no tutorial balloting going on) i decided to browse through the blogs of friends i'm no longer in contact with. My primary school friend's blog came as a shock. Only once in a blue moon that i actually read her blog and guess what. She's engaged. She's 21, he's 25. They've been together for about 1 yr plus and have their fair share of ups and downs. Her mum took it relatively well.
She used to be one of my "best friend" in primary school until she did something that was really low and till now, i don't understand why she did it. Didn't know why it mattered so much during that time. But i guess when you are that age and more or less sheltered from all the troubles in life, a little betrayal seems too much to handle. Anyway, it's kinda sad to have to find out about ur friend through her blog. I wished things didn't turn out the way they did and we didn't drift apart. Maybe, i would be the one whom she call when she got engaged. =) oh well.
I cannot imagine getting engaged at 21 and moving in with the bf. That's so young! Not to mention the sorry fact that i'm still happily unattached. But how much can you know a person in just 1 year? How much can you trust a person in just 1 year? Is 1 year enough to prevent a lifetime of unhappiness, of betrayals? Considering her parents has split up when she was in primary school and having to see her mum in constant anguish with all the failed relationships with bastards who are prone to violence, i would think that she is even more adverse to commitment.On the other hand, it might actually be this very reason for her to want to hang on a good guy when he's so in love with her. Don't misunderstand me, i wish her well and i'm glad she's happy. What are the chances of finding a good guy and keeping him in these times? Haha... =P
Just going to upload some nicer ones you can drool over... if u have even better ones... dun tell me... hehe
Sunday, August 07, 2005
Sea
Saturday, August 06, 2005
I do not expect comfort, neither do i want it....
Sometimes I don't know what i'm thinking and sometimes i don't know what to think. It's scary to have so many thoughts swirling in my brain and yet, at the end of a few hours, realise that i have no idea what i've been doing. Can't classify it as thinking because my mind was a blur. Daydreaming... maybe... but doesn't seem like it. It's like organized chaos.
So many things occurred recently, too many things. I am at a loss, how to react, how to take it, how to justify, how to solve. Am i enjoying myself each time i appear to enjoy myself? If i do, why then do i feel so empty at the end of the day? Does this mean i'm fake? Or just hanging on to adrenalin when i am in fact mentally drained and not realise it until i'm back in the solace of my room. Going out with friends provide temporary comfort. It feels good to laugh, even if the laughter was forced. The mood is all that matters. But recently, everything seems strained.
Isn't it great to lose youself in an imaginary world? A world created by authors, who will work out all the problems by the end of the book. There is a solution to everything, even troubles that would NEVER EVER happen. Books are great, but reality will crash down on you as soon as you close the book.
Maybe i take things too hard. Maybe i am too sensitive. My only excuse is i care. If i do not devote any feelings into any relationships (be it family/friends), i would not feel like i've been stabbed in the heart each time there is a conflict. If you get your wish that i do not react the way i do each time something like this happens, maybe you'll realise that i no longer give a damn. It'll be GREAT for everyone. I find comfort in withholding than sacrificing. When you expect the worst, anything would be welcomed with open arms, anything would be better.
Hell, i wish i didn't care...
