Obsessed... I'm going crazy. Extreme emotions are very tiring. Outside I am calm, collected. Inside I'm hysterical, a mess. Being indifferent, a.k.a. bochup, that's what I need to be. OR is it? Does it pay to not care? Like how a good friend put it, it's a balance. It does indeed reduce all the heartaches and tears. Removes the constant fear of rejection, insecurities and jealousies. But at the same time, it also reduces the amount joy and happiness you will feel. There will always be that distance, that space in between that will never be filled. Is it worth it? The amount of sadness VS. the amount of happiness. Went through both. Still don't have an answer. Is there anything in between?? Just a thought that has always been popping up in my head now and then. Sleep on it.  ¶ 10/25/2005 01:27:00 AM