To be or not to be... I am a pessimist. I am very pessimistic when it comes to my own life. I do not believe in being hopeful or thinking that everything will work out. Disappointment is always accompanied by unhappiness. I have enough of that to last me a lifetime. Mostly self-induced. Isn't it safer to be pessimistic and expect that everything will turn out wrong? Anything and everything that happens subsequently will be good or as expected. No harm there. When you are at the very bottom, the only direction left to go is up. Have I been living too much for everyone else? I am happy when the people around me are happy. So I try to make them happy. However, as bf puts it, you can't make everyone happy. Therefore, not everyone around me will be happy. Which leads to me not being happy. I'll never be happy will I? Okay sounds kind of weird. But you get my point.  ¶ 10/31/2005 01:07:00 AM